WHAT PEOPLE SEARCH FOR
Posted on February 15, 2010 - Filed Under Human Foibles | Leave a Comment
I often check the statistics for my website. I like to know how many people are logging in on a given month, and what countries they are in. But what intrigues me most is the search terms they use that bring them here. The most popular one is “smells like pussy.” (see Post: I Smell, [...]
Read More..>>I DON’T FIT IN
Posted on February 10, 2010 - Filed Under Human Foibles | Leave a Comment
I keep trying and sometimes I am given a smile or some notice and I think maybe I’ve been accepted but then a wave of disapproval crushes me.
I feel I am feeling I feel like I don’t fit in
I feel like an outsider. all these non artists
I feel judged they don’t notice me or laugh [...]
FACEBOOK INCOGNITO
Posted on February 10, 2010 - Filed Under Human Foibles | Leave a Comment
Facebook is creepy.
I am uncomfortable among groups. Don’t like crowds. Love being by myself. Sometimes enjoy the company of one specifically selected person at a time.
I am more confident sharing my feelings directly with one person I can be certain is understanding.
Facebook brings up all those high school feelings like cliques that I was not [...]
PASSING A STONE
Posted on June 7, 2009 - Filed Under Human Foibles | 1 Comment
Breaking up. The pain was insufferable. But when I slowed down enough to scrape him off the bottom of my shoe it was like I’d taken a hundred pound dump. I felt fantastic! So much lighter! No more cramp in my gut!
In retrospect, what seemed so grueling was simply inconvenient. I was overwhelmed with choices. [...]
SILENCIO!
Posted on May 17, 2009 - Filed Under Human Foibles | 1 Comment
I love spending time with myself because sometimes being with others feels like such an imposition. I would rather be in the comfort of my New York apartment with it’s crumbling brick walls and smooth wooden floors. I get sunlight from the South and the North. Sometimes I find the spot in my kitchen where [...]
Read More..>>I SEE
Posted on May 5, 2009 - Filed Under Human Foibles | Leave a Comment
When I was 12, I noticed a flaw on the top of my foot. An enormous brown spot. Dark and intrusive. Blaring.
Today, at 49, that same spot looks small and faded.
As a teenager I took a life drawing class. First day, the teacher asked everyone to draw a small circle then hold it up for [...]
LADY MARM ALOT
Posted on April 6, 2009 - Filed Under Human Foibles | Leave a Comment
Starched hair tight lips and rouge. Sand colored orthopedic peep toe shoes with skin tone peds. Nobody’s skin tone that I’ve ever seen.
She caught me staring at her. I couldn’t help myself. I pretended to shift my gaze slightly right of her face but the moment she looked away I had to look back. Her [...]
THE BIPOLAR CONTROLLER
Posted on November 20, 2008 - Filed Under Human Foibles | Leave a Comment
I seem to always be waiting for someone to save me pick me up take care of me seal my fate give me a specific. My therapist says this is emblematic of my unfulfilled childhood need to be seen and heard. She says the bad news is that no one is coming to save me. [...]
Read More..>>NURTURANCE
Posted on November 19, 2008 - Filed Under Human Foibles | Leave a Comment
I wanted to write about my decision to be childfree but didn’t want to call this piece PRO CHOICE, so I googled “pro choice euphemisms.” First up was a quote from a Catholic blogger “Pro-Choice is a euphemism for Very Grave Sin.” A sadly misinformed Christian proclaimed “Pro-Choice is a euphemism for Holocaust.” These were [...]
Read More..>>SOMETHING RESEMBLING A SHOE PLEASE
Posted on November 14, 2008 - Filed Under Human Foibles | Leave a Comment
Who started this fad? Who made this look acceptable? Does this man think he looks hot?
I have an issue with footwear. I think you can tell a lot about a person from their choice of foot covering. Or can you?
